October

I'm Koosh Frisbee.

I was stuck with the nickname "Koosh" after a really bad perm in High School and, No, I don't have any pictures of that time, nor would I show you if any had survived the fire.

I have several friends that are wondering why I am unusually depressed this month.

October used to be my favorite month, ahead of my birth month, January, and all other holidays, but last year that all changed.

I had always loved Halloween (don't all kids love it?) with all the dress-up, decorations, excitement and all the candy. I met a man who knew my love of the holiday and made the month all the more special by proposing and then suggesting that we get married on this special day.

Even though Dennis was taken from me, October remained my special month when my dreams had all come true, until my Daddy was taken from me last October, ByeBye Daddy.

This is my first October without my Daddy. I miss him so much that I don't know what to feel except empty.

I don't know what this will mean going forward, but my doctor tells me that writing all this down will help, so I started a blog. I wanted to let y'all know why October is so heavy for me and that I am working through it as best I can with the help of my family and my dear friends.